Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, LOVE leaves a memory no one can steal. Irish Proverb

Friday, April 23, 2010

Freud ~ really?

I'm not a fan of Freud (and never have been....and yes my minor in college was Psychology, so I've taken a *few* psych classes) ~ but I came across this quote and thought that it was pretty good!
Although we know after a loss the acute state of mourning will subside, we also know we remain inconsolable and will never find a substitute. No matter what may fill the gap, even if it is filled completely, it nevertheless remains something else. And actually, this is how it should be. It is the only way of perpetuating that love which we do not want to relinquish ~ Sigmund Freud
It's been one of those weeks for me ~ one step forward, two steps back. It seems like I'm just strolling along life when all of a sudden (and out of nowhere) WHAM! I am hit broadside ~ totally not even seeing what was hurdling towards me.
I've been cleaning out my crafting room ~ totally a safe thing to do....right? WRONG! I found the know *the* paperwork. My insurance was not going to pay for all the u/s that were needed, so I had to call my doctor to have her write a letter to the insurance company ~ which she did ~ and when I rec'd it I called the insurance company and they said they'd pay for it (darn right you are going to pay for it! We spend more on flippin' insurance than we do on food!!!!!!) ~ but I still have all the paperwork ~ every time I went in (over a month I was in the the doctor's office 1-2x a week) ~ and because I'm obviously masochistic, I read through it....BAD idea. Although I was happy to see that my doctor referred to Emelia as a "baby" and NOT a "product of conception". But looking at that and reading it was like reliving every excruciating minute of it.......
Then I was dragging out some of the summer clothes.....and I stumbled across the newborn cloth diapers I had purchased for Emelia (I had my husband pack them and all my maternity clothes away on September 12th so I had no idea where he'd packed the dipes away).
It's just been one of those weeks.......


Emily said...

I'm so sorry this has been a hard week, friend. Here, too. We need to prop each other up through times like this.

The quote from Freud is so cut-to-the-heart true.

Sarita Boyette said...

Some days are like that, and because you miss Emelia so much,so many things can be the trigger. Hope tomorrow is better and there are some things to make you smile.